One can never satisfy everyone

Silence, a state where one can stop, take a break and look into themselves than at others for a change. In rough times, its like a coconut. Even though you want to be stern and be for yourself in this state, it ultimately shows you how soft and capable you are within. It helps in understanding what you aim for and how petty the ups and downs in the life are when compared to the final goal. Sometimes it gives time to just be yourself in the best composed manner and realize how much you are going along with the flow of life and how much different you once wanted to be. It is the phase where one can not only introspect but retrospect and contemplate the actions and reactions. Just entered such a blob of silence and hoping to reap some results.

Silence is not silent.

Silence speaks.

It speaks most eloquently.

Silence is not still.

Silence leads.

It leads most perfectly.

Sunrise

I want the picture to speak for itself. This was the sight that greeted me when i opened my eyes from sleep.

Paoli

Thanksgiving season, malls with people running around for deals, turkey smell in every neighborhood. Certainly missed my dear friends Lylah and Michael. Their welcoming and sharing nature towards us as students, will always be a lesson for me to carry on till my end. Being married this year, we thought we shall spend our holiday in a quite suburb where we started our married life and had to leave the place owing to shift in projects. The 3 months in this suburb will be one of our most cherished memories. As the train landed, we felt as if we are not from NJ but we have just gone for some shopping and returning back to our townhouse in Paoli. Loved the moment, as the nostalgia gushed in, enjoyed the walk to the Paoli place apartments. It was not a very active vacation, we just lazed around enjoying the place with our friends. Surprisingly, our week has started with so much of positive energy. We are feeling ecstatic about our stay in New Jersey now, though its an extreme cntradiction to the Suburban life. Reminds me of n-number of trips i enjoyed with my TCS gang. Even though most of us are scattered to different places, something tells me all of us remember and miss our days of togetherness and relaxing walks in the wild. Happy about life and the holidays. Hope you had a good holiday too :)

Silence

hai charon taraf
pehli howi arzoo
dil main chupi
ankhon mian hi aaye kion

Fall season

A fine morning, windy and sunny. Cam in hand, just took a stroll, hair wound up in a knot, in my pajamas, just a jacket to ward off cold, unkempt and lost. Fall and the trees shredding leaves, one of the best examples i could quote for "Change". A transition which accompanies distress and hope. The sadness that the colors are vanishing and the hope that someday its gonna be lush green again. Feeling good and trying to be content. Spoke to a dear friend, caught up on updates from india and was amazed at how lazy i have become. People travel for hours to reach their work place and here i am with so much of convenience. Am i getting used to unnecessary luxuries or am i managing my time diverting from the commute to useful stuff. Sometime i think more potential was tapped out of me while i was working in india as i was handling work, commute and yet had my lifestyle rocking on. Not sure.....thinking for now... Chao !!

God and Universe, the perception and fact

A beautiful friday morning, 70F in Paoli, Philadelphia. I sipped my cardamom tea sitting on the step gazing at the lawn in front of my home, relaxing and enjoying the breeze. Stepped into my routine with deccan herald and ndtv filling me up with the updates around the world. Some mishaps, some big fat greek weddings, some political  buzz and Voila !! there i see the picture of stephen hawking and in big bold letters "God didn't create Universe". My first response was "Not again". I read the article, was quite thought provoking. Here i am reading about Lokayata/Carvaka and some recent studies into the Indian materialistic thought system. It might take few years for me to pen down even a simple opinion on something so vast , but shall certainly provide my view on this book edited by Debiprasad Chattopadhyaya. The book gives an overview (quoting some source materials) on Carvaka, a redoubtable intellectual and doctrinal sect outside the vedic fold, which despite the intense persecution from orthodoxy, stood its ground unfailingly and left a powerful impression on the corpus of Indian literature from Vedas to Upanishads to later. To conquer your opposition, you need to know everything about it. Ignorance doesn't seem like a bliss today. Chao !!

Subterfuge

I end up writing half my posts posing questions to my reader or to my self. Am here to ask if anyone does anything to flee away from things, just to keep yourself away from thoughts. I do. I cook, for hours sometimes just to keep myself occupied, most of the times escaping  from unnecessary thoughts. The observation here is that i don't get tired when i do that. Cooking is a physical activity which certainly requires some labor, skill and may be a little bit of conjecture which as per basic laws of common sense should result in exhaustion. May be its the duration of the activity that comes into picture and my count was 8 hours non-stop. This got me to think if people get involved in activities to evade from thoughts and would they choose healthier means to cater to their needs. I am interested to know. All this while i was under the impression that people get involved in tasks which enthrall them or satisfy some financial needs. Here comes a new category which might not bring the best out of you yet helps you have some stability. Let me know if you do anything like this or just pass onto a better read.

Canyon

Here am I, after almost 6 months penning down my views on the exponential rise of change with time. Married, bargained time to settle down on what i want, enjoying my day to day activities, life suddenly seamed to have taken a giant leap into a new world which looks beautiful. Or may be its a perception again. Balance is ruling on my charts and love is in the air. Someone pulls me in saying grab your strings before they cut. Do what  you crave for , know the passion within, enjoy your existence and play with the numbers around. Alive I sound, playful and chirpy, silence yet tells the slit is still felt. Great ones discuss ideas, cheap ones discuss people, mediocre discuss events. I think of togetherness, i long to be unified, people are different, but i want everyone to give life a chance. I am a learner and the life always holds a cane. Beat it or sing it, moral ends up deep within me. So are thoughts racing around in my brain, meeting new people, listening to their words, framing conceptions, still i term myself a lazboy. A toast, 2 clementia and a glass of skimmed milk, a healthy breakfast for an energetic day. Signing off to make some sense to myself.

Potential

Am amazed at the limits to which ppl could push themselves to and how truly circumstances bring out such unbelievable responses. This tells me somewhere within every human , there is just one simple mass of flesh which just needs some tuning to gear up and do things just like anyone else. Simple yet unexpected things have been happening around me since quite few days of my arrival in India.

Visited a temple and saw numerous devotees lighting lamps at a particular hour of a day to please the deity. Another mode of faith and i questioned is it true, are their efforts in the right direction. There are many and i mean a very huge number. I was intimidated to even ask, wondering if the answer is No, i would leave myself hurt that so many are in dark just waiting for something in return. I left the place quietly wishing their mode reaped the results.

Was watering the plants, which has become my daily routine and saw a cow in pain in front of the house. Even before anyone could react, it fell down on the street and there took place the most memorable street show i have ever seen. A baby calf was trying to put its step on the street with ten's of visitors watching the event.Wanted to be a vet in a split second and wished i could run to it to help. Hardly it could stand as the chord was connected and then the nature took hold of the scene. The chord broke and the mommy cow stood up and started licking the calf. Within minutes the calf was up and limping around. Wonderful was the moment and a smile spread on everyone's face. That showed me how simple things are designed by nature and how a human, being so sophisticated complains and cribs for 9 months. The entire process is made to look so complicated and few hardly realize that human race still grows in tribes where all the hyper medical facilities are not available. Are we getting used to luxuries unconsciously ? Or may be we are made to be over cautious about everything around. Yet our strength remains far beyond our estimations.

Thus thinking i have been spending the days and here comes a so called surprise which took away the happiness which lasted for a split second. How would people react if they know for sure something is going wrong and they are helpless and worse if it is affecting a dear one. You know there is no way out, expressing it out is not gonna yield anything, it is bound to happen and you know it is wrong for sure. I was faced with an unexpected scenario where i surprised myself by just being me and hopefully polite in being so. Its a pain to portray joy and suffocation to convince thyself, yet something calms me down saying everything is fleeting.

Hope to see more interesting scenes of play called "Life".

Home

Home is the place where you can feel the person's energy. Very speculative statement. I wondered saying "oh !! is it " But true..it makes sense. It reflects a person's taste, his interest in tiny little stuff, the way he throws things around or arranges with evident passion. I like observing, a new surprise for me. Just a casual day, miles of walk, not tired to cook, dinner at home, capscicum bath, dal makhani , shared with roomie and a friend. A day more to count my blessings. signing off with a smile.

Ehsaas

A bright sunny day, a 2 mile jog and a few min walk, my first home-made french toast and the pretty white frock, all set to have a relaxed day, ended up 15 hours working in the office. Thus, went along a memorable sunday. What am i looking for, why didn't i say No, for how many things didn't i say No ! Does everyone face that. Do they turn back and ask why didn't I ! I do, i do every moment and trying to make every moment not a source of this question.

Mood : Sleepy, Tired, Introspective.
Music : Ehsaas thoda bhi jagaaye, apne dilo mein hum, Vande mataram